Have you ever had that feeling when you’re smiling (or laughing) at the outside but deep inside you’ve already broken down? The feeling that you waited something (or someone) for so long and yet you won’t get it all? I do…and it hurts so bad.
I have done a lot of things these past 2 years for a guy that gives me only a smile in return. I know that he notices it. Who doesn’t? My change is pretty obvious. Yet, I don’t get any appreciation from all effort that I have done to/for him.
The reason for my change is because I always think that I’m ugly and/or not good enough for him. And I’ve convinced myself that it is true. I changed my ways to something that suits his lifestyle and personality. Yes, I am that desperate in having him. It actually makes me laugh. What. And here comes a girl that just recently liked him and he gives her a hug of comfort. All she did was advertise her love to him! (Srsly, I’m not gonna do that EVER)
A friend told me that I must be patient. Wait for the right moment to come. My friend had a great confidence in me…
I really don’t know how to end this. But after typing everything that I wanted to say, I feel much much much better. If you’re reading this. Thank you :* I really appreciate it since this is my 1st essay/diary post. :D
